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What I'm about to write, memang sudah lama terjadi. Cuma I lebih banyak diam dan lihat sahaja. Hal apa... Biasa lah hal my hubby, yang selalu sangat pentingkan kawan2 daripada famili dia sendiri. Sudah memang dari dulu lagi dia selalu saja dgn kawan. Tapi akhir2 ini sudah macam menjadi-jadi. Semenjak 'blood brother' dia meninggal dia lebih banyak masa diluar. Kalau di rumah pun telepon tak berhenti-henti berdering. Ada juga i talk to the 'blood brother' wife(Mmg I rapat dgn wife dia). She told me "banyak2 sabar gerl, nampak2 laki kau dah take over job arwah laki aku, jadi 'Big Brother'." Bila she told me that, I pun jadi alert la. Pantau tingkah laku hubby. Memang betul semua yg she told me hubby dia buat sudah jadi pada my hubby.

Kejadian yang terbaru terjadi pada hari Rabu, 30hb Mei 2007. I ajak dia go for dinner, coz mom-in-law tak dad rumah, jadi apa salahnya kita keluar makan sama2, lagipun esok holiday. I sampai sahaja di rumah, ido my usual thing lah, clean the house. By the time I took my shower hubby pun balek. Entah kenapa muka dia masam macam asam jawa. Sikit pun tak senyum or tegur me & his son. All he said was " floor berminyak sangat. You dah lap ke belum." To me itu perkara biasa, dia memang tak suka rumah serak or floor melekit. After he clean the floor again, he shower, siap and didn't even talk to me. Bila I see him macam tu, I put seperti biasa angkat kaki wait for him outside. Sekejap lagi my son come to me dengan muka yang merah and said to me "macam nak tumbuk jer muka dia, balek jer nak bising2 muka masam. Asyik suruh orang belajar, belajar belajar..." Masa tu I masih boleh tahan sabar. I told my son "sudah memang perangai dia gitu nak buat macam mana. You sabar jer la, his your father."

Bila dia dah siap, we go out la. I ingat dah ok lah. Dalam kereta dia tanya nak pergi makan di mana, and dia suggest to go to Bugis to buy bag for Khairul as a birthday gift from us. Seperti biasa HP dia tak stop berdering with calls lah SMS lah. Jalan di Bugis macam kartun rasa nye, laju giler. Aku nak look see pun terencat. My son nak beli t-shirt pun dia tak kasi. Apa hal pulak hubby ni. "Ok tak per" I said. Then we when to Bt Timah for late dinner. I memang tengah sakit tekak dari Monday. Nak order air si mamat tak dengar pulak, dia marah I suruh cakap kuat2. Suara dah tak leh keluar apa salah nyer you cakapkan. I punyer blood dah mula nak boiling. But tell myself to sabar. Sekejap lagi HP dia bunyi lagi. Members call, said diaorang semua lagi cuci kerata di bawah blok rumah I. Mamat bungkus murtabak lambat, Hubby dah macam tak tentu. Murkabak sampai, paid for the dinner, we pun make our way home. Dalam kerata hubby hati senang on lagu boleh nyanyi lagi. Me dah bingit. Sampai di parking nampak sangat dia happy. Bila nampak members dia senyum lebar macam nak koyak mulut. Me & my son bingit giler. Mendidih darah I.

Sampai di rumah mom-in-law ask "mana Jamal?" Apa lagi satu persatu I keluarkan. I told her dah lama I diam bab tak kuasa nak gaduh. I told her everytime we go out it macam kelang kabut. Cepat2 pergi cepat2 balek. Bila balek dia akan turun again jumpa kawan lah cuci kereta lah. Bayangkan lah my son pun dah pandai cakap "Ayah kan kalau keluar dgn kita mesti muka masam tak pernah bergurau. Abis tu pergi sekejap jer dah nak balek." You tell me lah kalau your child yg baru berumur 13 tahun(coming 2nd Jun) dah pandai cakap macam tu apa you akan rasa. Mom-in-law ask me to tell him, rasanya kalau I cakap pun macam cakap dengan orang pekak. So I let the matter rest lah. Tapi deep inside me I want hubby to change, I want him to know apa yang dia buat tersangat menyinggung perasaan me & his son. But apa yang I boleh buat selain berdoa. Mudah-mudahan one day Allah will buka mata & hati dia to realise apa yang sudah dia buat. Hopefully its not too late.

Then, yesterday I ingat hubby nak drive taxi, coz thats what he told days before. So I plan lah with my son to go to rumah my mother and pada masa yang sama i plan to collect my son LV bag from Sidah. I naik MRT with my son. Dalam train hubby call saying Aman baru start nak bawak taxi, that was about 1.26pm. I stop-by at Keranji station to go to 'This Fashion'. Hubby call again (1.53pm) saying dia tak bawak taxi. So i said "ok lah you come to my mom place see father yang tengah sakit'" Hubby kata "tak payah lah, nanti you nak balek i come and fetch you." Bingit jugak lah kan. Father-in-law sakit tak nak go and see. OK tak per, I relex jugak. Cuma i told him "tak payah fetch me, can go home myself, lagipun i nak jumpa Sidah." Then that settle... At about 4.51pm he call, macam orang boring bunyinya. He said mom-in-law bising2, he ask me apa I da mengadu to her. Bila i told him , you tahu apa dia cakap... "You manjakan sangat anak you, ayah pun you dah tak layan... Bila dengar dia cakap tu I pun jawab lah "you yang tak pernah layan I. I told you i sakit you buat bodoh jer bukan nak carikan ubat ke, tanya sakit apa ke." Brother bingit terus pun down phone. What, he think I will call him back like I use to do. Relex sua bro... I tak call until I was with Sidah. He call tanya bila nak balek. Baru jer jumpa dah nak suruh orang balek. He want to fetch me told him tak pe I can balek sendiri. Sampai di rumah I buat macam biasa jer. I dah siap kalau hubby tanya I tak akan diam jer will jawab secukup-cukup nyer. My son pun dah ready to back-up his mom. Well I think hubby rasa jugak cuma tak mahu mengaku, biasa lah lelaki 'EGO'.

I just hope he will sedar sebelum terlambat. Anak dah semangkin membesar. Perangai tak berubah juga, takut2 anak yang kasi ingat.........

Things Happen....

Sunday we when to Bt Gombak to buy PSP(Playstation Potable) for Khairul. Sebaik sahaja i told him that we are going to buy the PSP. Tersangat lah lebar senyuman dia beri pada i. Dah lama his waiting for it. Even his exam result sungguh mengecewakan, i still buy for him, dengan harapan he will study harder.

Monday was the last day Khairul when to school. As Tuesday he only need to sit infront of the computer to do his homework. And today he when for his THREE Days camping at Dairy Farm, Bukit Timah. He so happy. Bangun pagi jer dia dah cakap "Hooray! Camping!" Dia tak tau i yang susah hati, sebab tiga hari ni tak ada orang yg i boleh berbual. Well anyway, tak per. As long as he enjoy himself i will be happy.

Semalam i bingit dgn ibu mertua ku. Dari tahun lepas, mula jer i told her i nak masak sendiri for hari raya, she start to find alasan supaya i tak masak. Susah nak masak banyak2 lah, leceh lah kata dia. Suka menatahkan semangat orang. That was what happen semalam. Dia kata kalau order lagi murah & senang. Dia kata "mak dah kira dgn Kak B tadi". Bila i check the caller ID tak ada pun nombor kak b. Bohong lagi. Bingit betul i di buat nyer. Kenapa lah agak nyer. I masak pun bukan suruh dia tolong, cuma minta recepi jer. Kalau tak nak kasi tak per, i bukan bodoh sangat la kan. Jamal kata "buat bodoh jer, mak kan macam tu. U masak jer." Memang mak macam tu, tapi i yg bingit.

Well Anyway, I will still cook for Hari Raya.

Been awhile already....

It have been awhile since the last blog. My Boss the Finance Manager is leaving. Her last day is on the 12 April 2007. Not even half year she took over from the previous FM and now she's leaving...*sign*... Changing FM is like changing bedsheet here in Berger... Not only she my boss, she also my fren. We can talk and joke at the same time. The new FM have started work yesterday.... I think she from China.... Tak seronok lansung.... My mood have been down ever since i get to know that my boss is leaving.... Boring seh.... Tonight they are having farewell dinner, i don feel like going la... Tak ada mood terus. But i kesiankan Ani.... But still I think i don want to la....

I have been thinking of starting my own business, but don know what kind of business to start. I think i'm tired of working. I want to be my own boss....*sign*...

At home the usual thing, nothing much happen. Maybe b'coz i'm very much to myself and to my son rather than bother about other people in the house. Oh ya!! I have sold my Xbox 360 for $310 last sunday. I tot want to buy the PSP for Khairul. Suka nyer dia..... See lah Sunday go JB to buy. Tu pun klau Jamal tak tidur the whole day.....

Hairan......

Kadang kadang aku jadi harian dengan perangai orang orang di sekeliling. Bila bercakap mesti ada yang palsu. Bila pencerita yang asal menceritakan cerita yang benar kepada seseorang, tahu tahu sahaja selang beberapa hari bila sampai semula pada pencerita asal, lain pula ceritanya. Cerita yang sama sudah bertambah tambah garam gula ajinomoto dan sebagainyer. Ada juga yang menggunakan nama orang lain untuk menutup kehendak diri sendiri. Ya lah... misal kata i nak go somewhere or buy something but instead of using my name, i kata sipolan tu yang nak pergi or beli. Apa lah salah nyer cakap terus terang, kan dah kira berbohong tu... Yang ada tu segala perbuatan orang ada sahaja yang tidak kena pada matanya. Ada sahaja yang hendak di kutuk. Kenapa lah tak boleh diam jer. Kalau betul orang tu buat silap, bukan tak leh di tegur. Di tegur lah tapi kita mesti lihat dengan siapa kita bercakap. Cara kita menegur pun mesti ada tatatertib nyer... Bukan pakai terjun saja... Kekadang tu, orang tu memang buat silap, silap yang terang dan nyata. Tetapi bila di tegur boleh mendatangkan kemarahan pulak tu. Bukan nak mengaku salah, kita pulak di jadikan musuh. Rimas dibuat nyer... Sometimes tu malas nak berbual banyak banyak. Kita nak kasi ingat apa yang di buat tu salah kita pulak yang dikatakan salah. Betul lah kata orang bijak pandai "Diam tu lebih baik daripada banyak cakap..." Ada masa juga lebih suka lihat dan dengar sahaja, lagi fun.....

Term One Skool Holiday......

I was on leave, Thursday 15th March and Friday 16th March 2007, as it was the term one school holiday. So I pun holiday lah kan.... I have plan to go to the "Wild Wild Wet" in Pasir Ris with Khairul on Thursday. Sesungguhnya Jamal pun cuti. Tak sangka lah dia leh dpt cuti jugak. So Jamal, Khairul, Mother-In-Law and myself left the house at abt 8am on Thursday, we stop by Pasar Geylang for breakfast. We reach Pasir Ris at abt 10am... Fuyooo ramai nyer org..... But sits are still avaliable as the place baru jer open for business for the day.... Sampai jer, i terus change to my swimming outfit... Khairul and me go round the lazy river with the big boyah... Panas... But fun.... We go down the slides.... Big ones and the baby ones..hehehe....
Jamal & mother-in-law just sit and eat at the sitting area....We spend half the day at the "Wild Wild Wet".... Ingat nak stay longer tapi kesian pulak the two of them have to sit very long.... So after me and Khairul change we left the place.... I saw my elder anak sedara Nurjannah with her family and friends just before we make our way to parking....

After dah penat swimming... I suggest we go to the S'pore Expo... I know di sana ada Metro, Popular and Mega Carnival... Apa lagi shopping lah. I buy revision books for Khairul and some stationery from Popular. I brought myself a sandles, trouses for jamal and tuala alas kaki for mother-in-law and myself from Metro. Di Mega Carnival, Khairul do the ear-candling and mother-in-law urut kaki di kedai Azhar Norlesta... Hensom u... I beli tudung fesyen al-isteri AAGym, said the seller.. Lawa ya... should have buy 2 pieces, @ $15 each... Dah penat jalan, perut lapar. We when to clementi for dinner... After dinner balek lepak penat giler.....

Friday nite we when to "Night Safari". First tym ya..... Ok lah quite fun... tapi ikut kan Jamal mcm kelam kabut gitu... I think he want to end early so he can go see kawan dia di hospital... Petang nye he got news sidah meet with accident.. I tak paksa he go with us.. if he want to go and see his friend go lah me not stopping him. But anyway he choose to come with us. I just close one eyes and enjoy myself... The ride and the walk was fun...Gelap Gelita... Takut jugak... But fun.... We finish our ride at 11.30pm, so we walk at the shops outside the Safari... Then we when to JB for dinner, or i can say supper... Sleepy giler tak leh angkat mata...

Anyway i had fun the 2 days leave was worth it....

Monitor Down....

It have been a while since the last entry. This is because my home monitor is down and out. And i'm rather busy in the office..... So tak ada time nak write....

When to the IT Show last saturday with Khairul to get new monitor. Suppose to go with Jamal on Sunday.... But i takut what happen if he sleep the whole sunday.. So me and Khairul made our way to suntec city on saturday....The crowd, fooyoo.... but have to tempuh juga demi new monitor... We tried to look see look see but tak leh angkat babe.... My head dah nak start spining... I bought the scer 19"wide monitor.. Ok lah quite cheap $259, within my budget.... On the way out terserempah dgn Salim and family... We when to KFC makan then made our way home.....

True enough sunday Jamal sleep.... Kalau tak kerna nak pergi kubur dia tak bangun agak nyer..... Arwah Amy dah 1 year(11/3/06), tu la sebeb jamal nak go kubur.... mcm org cina lak anniversary jer go kubur....Hehehehe.....

Well anyway tak kesah lah dia nak buak apa, yg pasti i dah dapat monitor baru...Hehehe.....