Rasa rasa

Lately I've been very feeling down, don't know why. Seeing things happen around me and people behaviour towards me. I wonder is it me been too sensitive or what. Rasa dah macam tak ada kemesraan di rumah. Masing2 buat hal sendiri. Jamal sibuk layan kawan2, Khairul sibuk dgn kerja sekolah. By the time he finish dah malam and time to sleep. Tapi ok juga lah, bila dia tak ada kerja sekolah leh juga layan ibu dia. But for his father, he is more into his own world. He put us aside. Bila di rumah ada jer yg tak kena. Semua yg dia nampak salah pd mata dia.

At home every now and then hp will ring with sms la phone call la. Bila i tegur leh jadi marah pulak tu. I am try very hard to ignore, tapi sakit seh hati tengok. Kawan jer di dulu kan. Kawan ada problem tolong settle. From what i see he is taking charge of the frenz like aruah amy did. Jadi "Big Brother" la kan.

Kekadang tu i lebih suka bila dia tak ada di rumah. Aman tak ada org kacau. (Dah jadi macam khairul lak, lebih suka ayah tak ada.) I rasa i mesti banyak banyak bersabar, buat buta, beri perhatian more to myself and my son.